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30 August 2008 @ 04:50 pm
Day Twenty-Two of 41 Days of Metallicar ...  
I didn't have a clue what I was going to write today; I just opened Word and started typing. I guess I've got John on the brain ... so here's my contribution to day 22 of the 41 Days of Metallicar celebration, a lonely father moment.

He opened the trunk on a sudden flashback fully as powerful as his occasional unexpected, disturbingly vivid memories of ‘Nam. In place of the haphazard clutter of weapons, duffels, and tools, he saw one spade, shotgun, rifle, handgun, and knife in one corner of the trunk. The rest of the space was filled with bags of books, clothes, and groceries, and two things he hadn’t seen in years: a small box of secondhand toys, and a box of Pampers.
He blinked, and the trunk was back to normal.
As normal as it could be, anyway, now that Sam was gone.

I've always believed that John regretted the things he said in that bitter fight with his youngest son ...

Current Music: "Wayfaring Stranger" by Johnny Cash
whimsywinx: SN-HappyEndwhimsywinx on August 30th, 2008 09:06 pm (UTC)
I do believe you're right about John. *squishes him*

*lets go quickly before the Keeper sees*
bardicvoice: Daddy by <lj user=oh_mcgee>bardicvoice on August 31st, 2008 10:03 pm (UTC)
Good job on the self-preservation, there, Whimsy! (But I don't think the Keeper objects to others offering comfort to John ... so long as they don't hang on too long! *grin*)
aimehpueaimehpue on August 30th, 2008 09:11 pm (UTC)
It reminds me of that scene in WIAWSNB where Dean looks in the trunk and he realizes that he and his baby are civilians. I'm not sure Dean even remembers what the trunk looks like without an arsenal of weapons.

I think John regretted it too. He was just too stubborn to admit it.
bardicvoice: Daddy by <lj user=oh_mcgee>bardicvoice on August 31st, 2008 10:05 pm (UTC)
That trunk scene was in my mind just a few days ago for another drabble, so I guess it's not a surprise that it would come back with a different twist. And I'll bet you're right; Dean likely has no memories of a civilian trunk at all, poor thing.
originalcindyr: JDM Half Smileoriginalcindyr on August 30th, 2008 11:38 pm (UTC)
When I look in my minds eye at my girlies, I don't see a young lady at 17 and a couple of new teenagers at 13 ... I see them as my heart always sees them - fresh faces full of silly laughter as they play with chalk on the driveway or dig for rolypolys in the dirt. It doesn't matter that John became more of a drill sargeant as the years went by, I know in my heart that in his own mind's eye, he continued to see the tousle haired small boys of their youth - playing army men and cars in the back seat of his girl - needing to be protected at all costs from the things that he found out truly existed in the dark corners of life. This was affirmed with Dean's declaration in Bugs: "He was afraid of what could've happened to you if he wasn't around. But even when you two weren't talkin' ... he used to swing by Stanford whenever he could. Keep an eye on you. Make sure you were safe."

Thank you Mary ... for not having a clue when you began, I believe you got it just right.
bardicvoice: Daddy by <lj user=oh_mcgee>bardicvoice on August 31st, 2008 10:07 pm (UTC)
Ahh, Cindy, you're going to see your own hand in my story for day 23 ... that one's for you!
raputathebuta: Big Daddyraputathebuta on August 30th, 2008 11:51 pm (UTC)
*sigh* Oh Big Daddy.

I'm with you, Mary...John did regret certain things he did, especially giving his baby boy that awful ultimatum. Thank Kripke that he & Sammy got a little resolution before the end.
bardicvoice: Daddy by <lj user=oh_mcgee>bardicvoice on August 31st, 2008 10:08 pm (UTC)
I love John. I hope that the boys manage to get even more closure before the series ends; it would be awesome to hear from John one more time!
zofia27zofia27 on August 31st, 2008 01:31 am (UTC)
*grabs the Kleenex*
Darn you...
bardicvoice: Daddy by <lj user=oh_mcgee>bardicvoice on August 31st, 2008 10:08 pm (UTC)
Sorry! (Oops - better keep the box handy when you visit day 23 ...)
zofia27zofia27 on August 31st, 2008 11:44 pm (UTC)
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bardicvoice: Daddy by <lj user=oh_mcgee>bardicvoice on August 31st, 2008 10:09 pm (UTC)
Gotta give the man props for trying, even though he often screwed up ... at least both we and the boys know that he always loved them.